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Tuesday, January 10, 2006

A Pair of Parrots and New Year

A Pair of Parrots and New Year

January 10, 2006

December 30, 2005 Jen and I went to see Transamerica, it’s been on the list of films to watch for a while. Overall, this is a good film that is not totally focused on the T* topic. The film has a lot of trans humor and worth watching. Felicity Huffman played the part of Bree quite well. There is a scene where a pair of Dr. Meltzer’s dilators are in clear view. It surprised me to see that in any film. Andrea and Calpernia were involved with this film and their involvement really did make a difference in this film and the film reviews have been generally positive.

While were at the theater showing Transamerica there was a “Parrots of Telegraph Hill” DVD. This is another film that Jen and I have been wanting to watch. I had watched this with Mia a while ago and we both enjoyed the film very much. Jen purchased this DVD and we watch the film after our New Years Eve dinner. This is one of the better film we have watched this year. The place where this film was made brings back memories of my childhood as this part of where this film was made was part of my walk home from school.

One of the most enjoyable things about this film is the love, caring and sense of family these parrots revealed that is a big part of their lives. There are moments in this film that makes me wonder why human beings cannot treat each other with the same kind of love, caring and respect for the world we live in.

Jen & I live with a Parrot named Blasi. While she is Jen’s parrot, over the years, Blasi has grown to trust me enough to pet, feed and carry her around on my hand. We love this bird very much, she is part of our family. It’s curious that Jen and I are parrot lovers and in many ways, we are so similar to a pair of parrots.

Our New Years eve was a simple and quiet one at home with dinner together and sharing programs and films we enjoy watching together. Yes, we watched a few New Years events on TV, like Times Square, The space needle and various fire works. Over the years, I have come to enjoy these events from a distance. It’s a far less stressful way of bringing in a New Year.

One of my friends got boobies just after Xmas, December 28, 2005 to be exact. She had the surgery done by Dr. Gray and wrote about it in her journal http://members.aol.com/karaflynntg/journal/journal.html

Our BA concerns were quite different, Kara was mostly concerned about being too big and scaring, me, well anyone who has been reading my blog already knows what I’m so concerned about so I’m not going to mention it again. We talked on the phone one day after her surgery and overall, she sounded and felt good for day one post op. I had planned to stop by her place to have a look, but the storms kept me from wanting to drive over to her place. The last week of December has been very wet and windy and not the best conditions for driving. We are planning to have a get together soon and we will all get to see her new boobies then. (_)_)

Speaking of boobies, I got a call from our HMO regarding my recent mammogram. They wanted me back for a redo on my right breast. They found an area that looked suspicious, it does not appear to be BC, but they did want take more images to be sure. I made a follow up appointment and adding to the stress, a card arrived stating they found something. What a time for this to happen. Now I get to experience what it’s like to worry about your mammogram results and everything related to that :(

Talk about adding stress to all that is happening in my life these days.

My redo happened on December 10, 2006 and after being tortured by that mammogram machine with 4 more images. It turned out to be a problem with imaging my flattened breast. The technician that did my new images told me that some time when a breast is flattened, they don’t compress evenly and can result in a dense spot that appears to be a problem. What a relief, but as I sat there waiting in the changing area I could not help but think about what life would be like if they did find a problem. It’s simply a very scary thing to run thru your mind. My boobies hurt for most of the day after all that abuse from that mammogram machine. Not fun at all.

Before Xmas I was looking at stuff on ebay and impulsively began to look at view cameras. Much to my surprise, a Wisner 5x7view camera popped up with a rather low bid price. I already have more than one view cameras to use, but this is one that has been on my list for years. I decided to bid on it and much to my surprise, I won for less than my max bid. I have been a serious black and white fine art photographer for years before my transition and just about stopped when I transitioned. Recently, I have got the desire to do this again. Photography has been a real passion for me over the years and I guess it’s time to do this again. So much of the photography industry has changed in recent years. Digital is pretty much all you find these days. It’s instant, cost next to nothing for images and the quality is good enough for most. Black and white large format photography is ancient in comparison. My favorite film size it 5 inches x 7 inches, yes this is the size of the film (negative or transparency). You load each sheet into a film holder and process each sheet individually. The camera is more of a slow medative process rather than capturing the moment say in digital or 35mm. This is all about crafting a conceived image in one’s mind rather than capturing the event. It’s what Ansel Adams, Edward Weston and Group f64 was all about.

The images that come out of this process can be simply stunning. It is these basic tools that I love to use to express my photographic creativity.

Our travel plans for our trip to Phoenix is complete, my Dr. Meltzer account has zero balance and everything is ready except me. One day, We are going to take a trip to Phoenix to enjoy all that Phoenix has to offer. There are some truly beautiful places in Phoenix that we would enjoy visiting. And yes, I’m planning to bring a view camera to do some photography that I miss so dearly.

I discovered a rather surprising myth about my name recently. It says a lot about my hair and a bit about me;

This constellation (Berneice's Coma) were named by the greek Konon of Samos (247 BC) after the hair of Egyptian Queen Berenice

Circa 243 BC. She was the wife of King Ptolemy III Euergestes. He undertook a dangerous expedition against the Syrians, who had murdered his sister. Berenice swore to the goddess Aphrodite to sacrifice her famous long hair, of which she was extremely proud, if her husband returned safely. He did, and she had her hair cut and placed it in the goddess' temple.

By the next morning the hair had disappeared. To appease the furious king and queen (and save the lives of the temple priests), the court astronomer, Conon, announced that the offering had so pleased the goddess that she had placed it in the sky. Aphrodite herself brought the hair to the stars. He indicated a cluster of stars that at the time were identified as Leo's tail, but which have since been called Berenice's Hair.

No, I did not know this when I chose my name years ago. You got to wonder if this is coincidence or what?